"Just because something doesn't do what you planned it to do doesn't mean it's useless." - Thomas A. Edison.
School this week has been a pain in the ass. Thank god, Thursday is off and International Day is on Friday; the only real reason why this week was look forward for.
And with Kani (my driver) all the way in Indonesia having his holiday cause his daughter is getting married; i will be practically stuck at home.
I see everybody so happy, so enthusiastic, it disgusts me. Lately i haven't been myself, tend to keep things to myself, always angry at the wrong times. I'm like one of those typical Bruneians who is so proud that they walk around jaling at people and give disgusted faces to people like their superior than them.
Yes i feel like that. How can i see myself that low? haah.
What happened to that proud, funny person i used to be? I blame my self-esteem. I act like every things okay, like every things really fine; i am just lying to myself. I'm so up my self, and still are. To say I'm a changed person would be a lie, i will forever be me, it's just now i just realize what i am.
If only i had a restart button, then everything would be different.
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